This goes on, and on, and on, and on
Why does Trent Reznor always break little tiny pieces off of my heart?

I applied at both of the nearby districts. The third nearby district isn't looking for English teachers. I feel hopeless--it happens whenever I submit an application because it's out of my hands. I don't know how I come off on paper--I doubt it's as convincing as a conversation, although I make horrible first impressions (or at least I feel like I do).

So much easier to just flip a finger and be a writer. Not sure that'd be good for my heart or my sanity or my relationship.

Tired of being broke. Tired of stressing out about money. Tired of stressing out about everything.

Miss bass in my belly (with teeth).

I also watched a small clip of Manson in concert and it isn't the same thing. I mean... it sounds awesome and I'm sure it'd feel great. But he looks too old to be doing what he's doing. He looks like he's impersonating himself and it makes me feel awkward. It isn't sexy anymore--not the full get up. And I don't think it's just a matter of "Well clearly you've just grown out of that phase of your life"... Maybe a bit of it is, but he doesn't have the power he used to. The magic is gone.

Reznor ages better. He looks older, and I don't think that whole bondage Closer stuff would fly, but he's still got that plaintive heart breaking cry in his voice. Still has the power left in him.

This concert, by the way, is nothing compared to the one I went to.

I just figured it out. It's because Reznor isn't front and center--I mean, he is, but he doesn't make himself the spectacle at the center of the ring, the main focus, the be all and end all. He's more subtle so the aging doesn't steal as much from him as it does Manson.

Pointless entry because I'm bored and lonely and there's only so much spider solitaire a person can play on a given day before they go completely insane.

Only... only... only...